Saturday, 30 August 2014

Life lately.

I know my posts haven't really been 'me' lately. I've had a few posts in my drafts and scheduled for a rainy day or if I wasn't feeling too well.

You may have noticed a few weeks ago that I was in hospital for almost a week. At Beacons Festival I sat on the floor in a funny position when doing a craft class. I thought I'd just done my back in like I sometimes do, but progressively through the week the pain got much worse. So bad that on the Saturday I was rushed back to hospital in an ambulance. First time, so exciting! They gave me gas and air which was amazing, and gave me morphine in A&E (maybe that's why I felt so excited). They wanted to discharge me later in the evening but the morphine wore off and I couldn't move at all. They finally admitted me to the ward and I was in there until Thursday. I had an MRI scan which showed two slipped discs so it was attributed to that.

On Wednesday I went to my first physio session where my physiotherapist told me my pelvis was dislocated and the sciatic nerve between my muscle and pelvis was trapped; this is what she believed to be my diagnosis. She had to push it back into place which was really painful, but surprisingly felt a lot better afterwards. I'm concerned that this wasn't picked up on the MRI scan so I'll be looking into that further.

I'm on plenty of medication and I'm feeling pretty rubbish. To make matters worse I'm on crutches, and they don't work well when I'm having dizzy spells. I also have ME/CFS (something I've never blogged about and only a few people know about now), and I've had quite a bad flare up over the past few months as a result of my traumatic pregnancy and birth. Team that with my bipolar disorder and you may guess, I'm not a happy bunny.

I'm most unhappy about the fact I can't spend much time with my son. I can't hold him long, or sit up long enough to feed him, I can't bend down to pick him up, or even put him to bed. So I've been super down and feeling insecure and a big of a bad mother really.

Anyway, after my little rant and moan, I've been reading a lot of books; mainly Matthew Reilly (book reviews to come soon) and watching plenty of trash TV in LoveFilm. My favourite current series is Awkward and I'm on to season three of that. To cheer myself up I've bought a faux leather jacket from BooHoo (thanks to Sera the enabler) and a gorgeous pair of tan leather brogues from ASOS. Being the stationary geek I am, and a new university year starting, I've bought a gorgeous Filofax and have some printables. I bought two sets from Etsy, a blogging planner set and an academic/student planner set. Oh and some super cute printable paper and dividers. I might do a blog post on that soon. 

So, here's to a brighter week next week, with a new hair colour and possibly leaving the onesie and putting on one of my beautiful new dresses; along with trying out my new beautiful sewing machine!

6 comments:

  1. Oh Michelle, you sound like you've had an appalling few months, it's not easy being a new mum at the best of times- let alone when you can't do things and your health gets in the way. My advice to you would be to kind to yourself, focus on listing and doing the things you CAN do for Dex and remembering that nothing has to be forever.HUGS xx

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    1. Thanks so much lovely. I've recently had a lot of input from a few people and I've realised that I need to keep myself happy and that it's ok to be down and have a bad day. Nothing is worse than when you're poorly x

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  2. Oh bless you Michelle, that sounds so painful and I really feel for you with feeling rubbish on medication and with certain emotions. Bipolar is possibly the worst of my problems but it still tries to poop on me everyday! I really hope everything gets better for you soon. Focus on your gorgeous boy and getting better. It's okay to forget about blogging for a while, I do it a lot!
    I would love to see a post on your stationary haul!

    Tamsyn-Elizabeth
    Peach Pow XO

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    1. Thank you so much for your comment, it's nice to see that I'm not the only one going through it and that people are happy to talk about their mental health problems and beating the stigma too. x

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  3. Sounds like you've been having a tough time recently - hope you're feeling a little better now! I saw the photo of your new hair colour and it looks great! As a fellow filofax lover, I'm definitely interested in seeing yours and the set-up!

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    1. Thanks Katie. Hopefully I'll have a bit of a stationary haul up soon too! x

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